Coming of Age...
Maturing In The Light
By Rev. Wm. Duby, Founder & Pastor, 1945 - 2001

I have just completed my meditation period where I sit still and watch the thoughts dancing in my head while vying for my attention. Each desires to live, as it lived before when embodied as some other human which reminded the specific thought of myself. For, it is obvious that the thought has become typecast into the image and likeness of my body because of its former embodiment where it wasn’t suited in being itself at all costs for Christ sake. And, now, as before, the thought decends unto the realm of my being where it parades with the parody of dressing itself within my mind for the playful game of chaos.

Each thought which is as a ‘thoughtless thought’, not mindful in consideration of life, limb and property does love for myself to day dream, believing that I can create this or that reality, be something like itself which is no more than a depository of hellish desires that craves to lavish upon myself the title of lord and master of my own destiny. Yes, I see such thought. ‘The thought of thoughtlessness.’ The thought which harbors grief as pain in seeking pleasure at the expense of the well being of another such as myself.

How do I know the desires of this thought? I know for it plays upon me. This thought, these thoughts, play upon me, they play upon my mind, always desiring that I manipulate another as they desire to manipulate me. I watch these thoughts from the quiet place within my mind, the place of the psychic space where I am endowed with the inalienable right of passage beyond the normal consciousness of the damned where self gratification is the call of the hour and the moment of personal disaster is the loss of integrity.

As I sat, I observed these ‘thoughtless thoughts’. “How wondrous,” I began to realize. These thoughts, these ‘thoughtless thoughts’ are dependent upon myself at this moment for life. Unless I give them presence in my life for all practical purposes their life upon this earth is finished.

I had the power to bring them alive by entertaining their fancy.

I had the power to leave them well enough alone for my well being.

I was in charge of where I stood fast to my belief by direct knowingness that I am not they, even though they, I might add do not know that they are not me. And as I watched, simply observed, not objecting, I realized my proper place and position within the love-life of the God of my heart. As quickly as these thoughts entered my mind to become part and parcel of my mentality is as quickly as they left for they found no place to rest.

They moved, going wherever they can go, doing whatever they can do, searching for another like myself which is less aware than I am.

Yes, the Tao is correct, “This too will pass.”

Like the wind they come and go, breezing through my mind, awaiting the chance opportunity in discovering an unsuspecting soul caught up in their unawares.

Oh, God, I realized, their life must be hell. They are no more than cinders sparking from a fire, casted away by the frivolous pursuits of yesterday’s desires, too hot to handle - too afraid to live and too afraid to die. They have no place to go, no place to be, no place to reside, no home to call their own. How grateful I am to have a body!

Thoughts, ‘thoughtless thoughts’ are forever lonely. They can bond with no one save the wicked who delight in the separation from God. Then, even then, their stay is short for their way is limited if not perverse; caring not for life, caring not for limb, caring not for property. Always the mindless who are not thoughtful of the cares and considerations of others who have need to gain the life experience of the Lord of Host - who Is Alone the Love, who Is Alone the Life that we have come to think of as our own.

I am more aware because of my undertaking to be still and to know. I realize I have no life of my own. Nor, I might add, do I desire a life of my own. I desire to mature upon the Life of the Only One who Is Alone Life. His Glory, His Presence is the Light upon which I pray to be His Lamp stand of eternity.

I am clear because I was wise in demanding that I took the time to worship God, this day. May everyday, in every way, be as this day - a responding to the ‘Love of God’. This is my causation that I have been priviledged by the Living God to know for well being. I am set into my freedom because of Him. Others are free from me for I am free to be in Him by being within myself for peace of mind and gladness of heart. In this - I am happy and this is my elation of a bonafide relationship with Him, My SAVIOR! It is good to be with Bill. I am his helpmate.

Peacefully From Within
Rev. Bill

Rev. William Duby’s writings and recorded material can be found in the “Founder’s” section of the www.celestia.com website.